As most of you have known, I have started covering my aurah recently. I am still not used to it, but in time I will, insha Allah. People around me have started to look and treat me differently, with more respect if I may add, colleagues at work have stopped touching me, and I them. The workers at any shop would mutter their salaam when I pass by, and I really enjoy that. It makes my day, every day.
This is only the beginning masha Allah, I have so many things to learn, I am still not praying 5 times a day like I am obliged to, but I am getting there. It's almost Ramadhan.
And as most of you have known, I had a breakup recently. Masha Allah did it shatter me ! I was looking for all the wrong reasons in a guy, when I really should be looking for someone who would not only be good for my dunya, but also for my jannah. He was a good guy, but not good enough for me. I am so glad it was over when it did, (though back then I didn't see it yet) but Allah loves me more than I love Him.
I remember few months ago I prayed, that if he was the one for me, make it easy for us to be together, and if he is not the one for me (this includes my jannah, too) then make us apart. Little did I know, Allah answered to my prayers ! Alhamdulellah ya Allah :)
I used to look at him and sadness would grow in my heart, I thought I was missing something/ someone very valuable and worth keeping. I used to love him dearly it broke me when we ended. But now, when I look at him, all I could see is a guy, whom I have loved and have loved me back, but will never bring me towards His jannah. Now, I am not even sure he would bring me happiness in dunya, let alone in hereafter. I think I was in love with the idea of love. What wrong reasons to love !
If you knew me personally, you might think that I am crazy? But isn't this dunya merely a journey home? To our jannah?
We were made in Jannah. We were made for Jannah.
This is simply our journey to our final home, inshallah.
I am writing this not to brag, but to share, and if you're having a hard time, remember ;
Do not let difficulties fill you with anxiety; after all, it is only in the darkest nights that the starts shine more brilliantly. - Ali Ibn Abi Taalib (RA)
I pray that whoever that is reading this will be well, that if you are hurt then I pray that you will heal, and I pray that Allah strengthen our imaan and reward us abundantly.
I will write again soon, insha Allah.