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Ini paprik ayam yang saya masak semalam. Bolehlah, macam agak sedap juga rasa dan rupanya boleh tahan macam kedai tomyam kan? Saya tak ada halia di rumah dan sebab hari dah malam, saya malas nak keluar ke kedai bawah. Halia saya ganti dengan bawang putih. 

L- makan bertambah, kira sedap lah tu. 

Ini teman sekerja saya, Sha. Beruang teddy itu sepatutnya untuk dijual, tetapi sebab ada sedikit kecacatan maka kami di pejabat dapat beberapa ekor untuk diseksa dan dilenyek- lenyek dan di ambil gambar. 

Roald Dahl - penulis kegemaran saya. Salah satu. 

Quotes

“A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.” 
“Do you know what breakfast cereal is made of? It's made of all those little curly wooden shavings you find in pencil sharpeners!”  
“We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams.”  
“If you are good life is good.”  
“Two wrongs don't make a right.”  

 Love should not be mediocre. 

 L- ambil gambar pra- perkahwinan teman baik saya Seri dan tunangnya Sabtu lepas. 

 Teman- teman sekerja saya pada hari Sushi Bonanza di Sushi King, Jumaat lalu. Satu pinggan adalah RM2. Siapa yang tak gila. Kami siap keluar pejabat awal dan beratur, nasib baik sampai sebelum peak hours. Boleh makan dengan aman dan kenyang. 

 Ini kasut merah saya. Sedap dan selesa. Cantik dan murah. 

What more can a girl want. 

Di Murni USJ beberapa minggu lalu, semasa menemankan L- makan malam dan berdiskusi tentang business temannya. 

Tambah pedas tetapi tak pedas langsung. Atau deria rasa saya yang kurang / sudah mati. 

Apapun, gambar- gambar di atas adalah koleksi dari Instagram saya.  

Rambut

Saya berambut panjang, seperti gambar - gambar di atas. Ia diambil 3 bulan lepas ketika saya di bercuti di Bandung. Sejak mula bekerja tahun lepas, ini adalah percutian luar negara pertama yang saya bayar sendiri. 

Sejak dewasa ini, paling pendek saya pernah potong rambut saya adalah paras bahu.
Gambar pada November 2010.

Mungkin kerana faktor genetik (saya ada campuran darah orang- orang berbulu lebat/ berambut tebal), rambut saya memanjang dengan kadar yang amat cepat. Rambut saya banyak dan tebal dan gugur juga banyak dan kerap. Saya selalu ingat saya ada leukemia kerana setiap hari lantai dipenuhi rambut. Kalau syampu, saya rasa kepala saya ringan 10kg, sebab banyak sangat rambut gugur. Haha.

Walaubagaimanapun/ hatta (lama dah tak guna perkataan- perkataan ini), ini rambut saya beberapa minggu lepas. Banyak, kan?

Ini entri paling tak ada motif tahun ini.

Sebenarnya saya nak potong rambut pendek.

Macam Diana Rikasari ni.

Okay ke tidak okay ke tidak okay ke tidak


Updated :

Lupa nak kongsi. Saya minum Cocoa Collagen sebab dia sedap, dan kononnya boleh membaiki struktur kulit kerana kandungan collagennya. Saya minum sudah berbulan- bulan, kulit tiada perubahan. Tetapi rambut dan bulu saya menumbuh dengan banyak dan lebat dan cepatnya.

Untuk orang yang tak berapa banyak rambut, atau ingin melebatkan rambut mereka, silalah minum ini. Saya bukan agen, cuma mahu berkongsi.

Antara benua-

Saya cuma mahu berbahasa Melayu di sini.

Teman sekerjaku, M, akan ke Nigeria dalam masa terdekat. Teman lelakinya warganegara Nigeria dan bekerja di sana. Mereka berkenalan beberapa tahun lepas di sebuah universiti di Melaka, dan teman lelakinya, O, telah kembali ke Nigeria pada 2010. M akan meninggalkan kerja, keluarga dan segalanya yang dia ada untuk bersama dengan O, di tanah tumpah darah O yang masih bergolak dan tidak stabil letak duduk ekonomi, politik dan keselamatan.

Begitu kuasanya cinta.

Sejak O kembali ke Nigeria pada 2010, M telah mula bekerja, beli kereta dan kumpul sedikit harta di sini. M anak sulung dan mempunyai seorang adik lelaki yang juga telah bekerja, ibu M seorang suri rumah dan merupakan seorang tongue cancer survivor. Bapa M, seorang jurujual buku dan ensiklopedia. Mereka keluarga golongan pertengahan, working class heroes bak kata Lennon pada tahun 1960-an.

Kalau awak pernah jumpa M, awak akan tahu betapa desirable nya dia, dari segi rupa, cara pemikiran, wawasan dan cara kerja. Dia tidak pernah putus dengan idea, dan kadang- kadang mesyuarat kami kerap dilanjut masa kerana idea dia datang mencurah- curah bagai salji di musim sejuk di Rusia. Aku senang sekali bekerja dengan M untuk hampir satu tahun kami di sini.

Bila dia mengkhabarkan berita yang dia akan ke Nigeria dalam waktu terdekat, dan bila ditanya untuk berapa lama dia di sana, indefinitely adalah jawapan yang kami terima. Terdiam sebentar kami. Andai M memilih untuk meneruskan kariernya di Malaysia, aku yakin yang di pengakhirannya dia akan menjadi satu nama yang cukup besar dan gah. Namun dia tidak mahu semua itu.

Tempatku adalah di sisi O. 

Bila dia menuturkan begitu, aku merasa sungguh damai. Rupanya bukan cuma aku seorang pencinta tolol, yang akan melepaskan semua punya aku untuk cinta.

M menghitung hari terakhirnya di sini, dan aku terkadang merasa sungguh beban yang dia galas. Urusan- urusan dokumen berpita merah, yang prosesnya harus dilicinkan dengan duit, dengan keluarga yang harus ditinggalkan, keselesaan dan familiarity.... Bukan calang orang.

Walaupun dia sendiri yang memilih untuk ke sana, namun aku merasakan ini juga ujian untuk dia. Siapa juga yang bilang ujian cuma datang bertemankan air mata?

Dalam pengakhiran hari- hari ini, M, semoga kau tabah menghadap segalanya. Dan semoga dilebihkan bahagia dan kekuatan dan diselamatkan Tuhan nyawamu di sana.

Content-

The world cannot contain me.

Gratitude

Murni

I am blogging from an infamous eatery place in USJ. L- is teaching a friend of his about online blogshop. She is joining the wagon. I guess the idea must've crossed most of us at least once. Well for me, I still have that dream. But my dream to publish my own book is bigger. L- had an interview today and from what he said, it went well. Back to office matters. Because I spend most of my time in office. I was there at 7am today until 7.30pm. Anyway, back to office matters. We (my team and I) met and talked to A- face to face. Everything was laid down clearly. He looked like he is really trying to better himself, to fit with the demands. I sure hope the change will be constant, and I pray that he does not go back to his defensive self. You don't know... My company has weird traditions. I will blog properly later when I get home. I don't fancy writing on small screens.

Here's to love

I'm at work so this is just a quick one.

Any of you are in a relationship? Is it normal that after being quite long with someone, you still have butterflies in your stomach? When he likes your pictures/ status on Facebook, or when he replies your tweets, or when he draws you something on Draw Something, or when he replies your Whatsapp? Or when he picks you up, and when he compliments you?Or when he finishes what you cook, and asks for more? Or when he hints that you've been a great help with the housechores?

Is it normal what I'm feeling?


Sod it, even if it's abnormal I love feeling like this (:

Here's to love.

Turning one

Some time last week, L- and I turned 1. Having written it in black and white makes it seem so short, but I feel like I've known and loved him forever. After myself, it is safe to say that he knows me best. Which is quite scary and endearing both at the same time. But it came to me as no surprise as we do spend a lot of time together this past year, and we fit like a perfectly matched glove right after.

I lost my best guy friend a few weeks ago. I've known him for 7 years. Let's just name him M. His partner doesn't trust in plutonic relationships and keeps on picking fights with him over me. Like why was I even in his life. I guess M is tired of all the drama and I understand. It's her that he will grow old together, insya Allah if their jodoh is strong, not me. She will be the one who would be there for him through thick and thin, not me.

So we've bid our friendship goodbye. I was sad, but I am happy for them.

Fikir- fikir, aku pun tak punya kawan lelaki yang rapat kecuali L-. Selain family dan girlfriends, cuma L- yang aku ada.

I think everything that happens to me so far is the best. I'm 24 and let's just face it, everyone around me is getting hitched and settling down. My turn would come in due time, and when it comes, I want to be a good wife. A wife my husband can be proud of, in this world and the hereafter. And I can't see myself being a good wife while I have  a lot of guy friends, can I? Mere acquaintances are another story, they are called acquaintances for a reason.

Growing up, I didn't believe in God as much as I do now. I used to question His doings and I kept asking questions. That explains why I wasn't happy for a long time in my teenage life. You can't be happy when you keep asking why, why, why, can you? Now that I'm older and wiser, I know that things do happen for a reason. And in my case, it always happens for the best.


If you're having a hard time, dear friends, have faith. As good times don't last forever, neither do the bad.

Is not Allah the most just of judges? (95 : 8)

What's best

Picture credits to C*

I have been working at G* for over 10 months now. Totally different than what I studied (I did Physiotherapy in college), but I am loving it. The responsibility is the size of Everest, good thing my pay isn't too shabby. I didn't think I would stay here for this long, when I first took the job last year, it was all because I literally had nothing to do upon finishing my final exams. I finished my OSCE in Hospital Putrajaya at 3pm, and I updated my resume on Jobstreet at 5pm. G* called me at 6pm and asked me to come for an interview the day after.

I was impressed at their speedy response, and there I was, the day after, in my car 30 minutes before the interview started, reciting all duas that I can think of. I kept on texting my mom to ask her to pray for me, that if this was what's best for me, then let me have this job.

The bungalow (we were located in a big bungalow back then, with about just 50+ of us) with a table tennis table, big swimming pool, who wouldn't be impressed? I loved working at the sundeck in the mornings, and fighting for a bean bag in the afternoon cause the sundeck is just too hot, it was only few months ago but it felt so long.

I've always been a firm believer in God's wills, and I've always believed that I'll get what's best for me. I am still here, and I am loving it day by day, but somehow I feel like my days here are numbered.

Thank you.

I want to write happy tunes.